I used to be a coward when it came to standing up to bullies. I would run the other way and become so sick to my stomach with fear and anxiety. Somehow this changed. Maybe it’s been motherhood, dealing with bad co-parenting situations with his ex or maybe I’ve just dealt with enough bullies and can’t take it anymore.
This morning I had my weekly weigh in. I managed to shed those two extra pounds this week. There have been a few days where my diet wasn’t ideal, so I’ll take it! I was a little frustrated two hours later after my shower when the scale added three pounds. I’m still claiming the first reading. This week I am going to drink more water and increase my physical activity. Do I have a legal 18 coming my way next weekend? Yes I do!
Staring down at the scale I felt an incredible sense of loss. That is “loss” in a good way. It’s amazing how powerful one number can be. It can make your morning or break it, leaving you discouraged and disgusted with yourself. This morning my number left me feeling encouraged and hopeful. Reaching a total loss of 14lbs in two weeks is a pretty good feat. Next week I hope to be at a total of 16lbs. Losing never felt so good!
We often forget just exactly how fragile life is. God gives us no promises of tomorrow. Yet, we go on about our daily lives as if we are invincible. We make choices that we shouldn’t and live our lives carelessly. Perhaps this is, in a way, God’s gift to us. That we can enjoy life on this earth without thought of our eventual demise. Of course, to God our physical end is not a demise at all. It is a mere beginning to our eternal life with Him. Though, however you slice it, death means goodbye to this world and all we have ever known. It means goodbye to our loved ones, as we have known them.
Today began with sharing the wisdom and live of our awesome God with about 25 kids :). Then we spent the rest of the day with family.
I love my family so very much! Today B was cold. I love is when he snuggles up with me to find a blanket of warmth :). Today at church I talked with another mom who is having big problems with her son saying mean, hurtful things to her. I thank the Lord that we do not have those troubles with our boys. They seem to understand the importance of treating each other with love. We really put emphasis on that with our family. We all deserve to be treated with love and respect. I hope this is one thing they will carry with them to their other house and beyond their childhood years. I love watching them grow into young men, but I also kind of wish they could stay children for a while longer. I want to remember them this way. Sweet, innocent, caring and a strong compassion for people around them. My prayer is that they are able to grow into selfless men who love the Lord, love their families and constantly look for ways to show other the love of our Savior. Selfless, passionate, with a strong sense of servant hood.
As for my diet,
I really did not have any cravings today. I proteined up for breakfast, had a snack of fruit and nuts, a lunch of protein and fruit, then dinner of protein and veggies. I did snack on fruit while others were having their dessert, but I had NO urges to go grab a piece of brownie for myself. Self control is finally within my capabilities :)
This week has NOT been easy. I have had nausea, intestinal issues and tiredness. This weekend I decided to go a little more lax with the diet, but not too much. I felt nausea again today with the zucchini. Not sure what is up with that.
I have lost 12 lbs which puts me under my danger zone. I need to keep going with the small meals and veggies/ fruit.
One more week until phase 2!
This is day one of my PCOS cleanse. I will go for 14 days then add some whole grain and more meat into my diet. The cleanse will help me to free my body from toxins, sugars and hormones from meats.
I started this cleanse because I have been feeling tired, cloudy minded and swollen. My hope is to give myself a good foundation to maintain a healthier eating style and eventually get back to good health. It’s not so much about losing weight for me this time. I want to feel healthy and have energy to accomplish much more in life that I am currently.
Right now, on day one, I feel lousy. The intestinal issues have already started. And I realize that I will need to help my stomach out by chopping some of my veggies into smaller pieces.
I am hoping I will feel better by days three and four. After day fourteen, I will begin my next phase… Physical activity. I’ll start by walking 20 min a night. Then I will build myself up to 30 minutes.
It will be a journey … One that I hope will result in a much healthier self :)
Family and friends are very important to me. I believe God places us in the lives of others for a reason. We often question how others fit into our lives and how they affect us. What about the other way around? How can we positively affect the lives of those around us? What might seem like a troubled relationship could really be an opportunity to make a difference for someone else. Many times it might be hard to see the difference we are making. I believe that every relationship is a gift. And not all gifts make us feel warm and fuzzy inside. It isn’t always about us and how we feel. Sometimes it is more about what we learn about ourselves and how we make others feel.
I can’t breath out of the left side of my nose. Laying down makes it worse. Plus it is hot in our room, so I am sleeping downstairs in the recliner.
I’m sleepy and restless. Lately a full night’s rest is rare and should be treasured like rubies. Someday I’ll sleep well again… Maybe.
I miss my boys already :(. It will be odd waking up without them here. It usually is on Monday mornings. I hope they get plenty of rest and feel better tomorrow.
I have goals this week. Big ones. Laundry, homework, housework, gardening, researching pool rashes are all on my list. I need to be productive tomorrow. I need to exercise too and drink tons of water.
We go on vacation in three weeks. I need to feel healthy by then. So, I am committing myself to drink only water (and lots of it), eat no sugar or bread, eat lots of veggies, and exercise daily. In three weeks I should feel better and able to enjoy our trip.
Summer is half over and that makes me sad. Somewhere inside of me is a housewife that is aching to do all kinds of domesticated things every day. Another side of me looks forward to going back to work and hiring a cleaning lady. I also long for cooler, crisper air. The mountains sound nice.
I want to plan an extra fun week for when the boys come over next. Sleep over with their cousin, play date with friends, cool craft projects are all in the works. Maybe we will do a mentos and diet coke experiment. I’ll have to see if Walmart or Krogers is having a sale :)
I worry about our oldest getting saved. Will it ever happen? My heart breaks to think of an eternity without him. It breaks even more to think if him spending an eternity in hell.
I feel hungry, but it is too late to eat. I must sleep or I won’t be productive tomorrow.
Goodnight… I hope :)
I do believe that my son has entered the tween portion of his life. Praying that God grants us the wisdom and patience we will need to help him grow into a strong, Godly young man.